Whew! I had no idea that two months would fly by so quickly! Looking back on the weeks since my last post, I will admit that things have definitely improved, but there is still a part of me wondering when things will REALLY start to get better?
I'm sleeping a little more each night, I'm waking up a little happier each morning, and I have more energy than I used to throughout the day. But, I can't help but want more improvement. Is that selfish of me? Probably. But it doesn't matter. Because I just want to feel BETTER.
I want to be able to get through one day without a tumult of emotions, without feeling incredibly fatigued and run down at some point, and I definitely want to be able to get through one day without a handful of hair coming out of my head. I'm impatient, I know, but I'm pretty sure most people in my shoes want to feel better NOW, not several months from now.
At my last doctor's appointment, my doc was satisfied that the current dose of my thyroid medication was sufficient since it had dropped my TSH 2 whole points, down from 4.5 to 2.5. It didn't matter that I argued that perhaps for me, 2.5 was still abnormally high. She remained firm that she would not change or increase my dose until my next follow up in 6 months. So I caved, and walked out of that office resigned to try life for a while on this dose. Now I am thinking I may have done myself a huge disservice. After all, it's not her job to be my advocate--it's mine. It's my job to stand up for myself when I think something isn't going in the right direction, and I have to take responsibility for that.
I guess that is the point of this post: if you are struggling with thyroid disease, or any other chronic illness, please be your own best advocate. No one else is going to stand up for you, no one else knows on a deeply, personally intimate level what is best for YOU. You must do it, because no one else will. And it is time to take my own advice!
